Need to get things off my chest

I debate over which blog to post this in... finally decided here, as no point posting it in LJ--where it's friends-only, after all, this is meant to be a public post ...

To people who read this open blog: You know who you are, not naming names...

Few things to say...

1. Heart-felt apologies going out to my team members... you know who you are... Next time, if there's a need to... go ahead and 'slap' me or punch me on the head... I'll make sure that I listen to what you said...

I'm slow in reading people's thoughts. I would know if one is upset, but I'll never know which is the one that triggered it off... -_-() I usually brought up more than 1 issues... so I wouldn't know which is the ticking bomb.

2. I likes to rush and finished things in advanced, I don't like to take time and do them slowly... It makes me brood like a 'BITCH' (I used this term ...I know I am One)... and makes me thinks too much -- temper bad...

Apologies again, if you think I'm being negative... but the truth is...I'm impatient and simply want to get things done fast.

3. Team members -- if you've got anything to vent/say/rant... Go ahead... Irregardless how you wanna do it -- blog/phone/comments... go on, or if you want EMAiL... I'll listen and try to clarify.... Please do not keep them from the members or keep it to yourself... I don;t like people keeping things away from me... It makes me feel unwelcome and negative... sooner or later, I'll try to distance myself away from you guys thinking that your life would be better off without me.... Please don't make me go back to what I was before... I don't like the feeling... and to be honest... I hated it...


I treasure our friendship more than anything-- please do tell me straight in the face or put it where I can see it, not going around telling anyone else and keep it from me. I want to know it in advanced, not after everyone else. I would prefer it if we can arrange for a session and just rant/said/vent whatever we want to say to one another in a closed off area, then we did the same for one another. No secrets between us -- I meant in terms of our concepts of one another/projects or anything else. I certainly don't mean the family matter. That one, you can keep it as a secret.

I certainly don't mean to stab anyone, if you felt that way-- tell me!!! I'm not good with words, sometimes it meant something else... so please always clarify it with me and not assuming it in your own way.

That's all I'd wanted to say...