Fed Up

I don't know how to say this but I'm feeling fed up beyond reasoning. Its' only another 6 weeks ++ to be free from this hellhole, provided they find a replacement soon. I had had enough of dealing with all these never ending pile of paperwork, and worse dealing with ppl who simply do not go by the SOP.

Additionally, ppl who leave me note over the weekend, didn't write their name down and expect me to know just what the hell is going on and whom wrote the note. Which, in actuality ... I had no idea of it... I'm so sick and tired of dealing with all these nonsense ... can't they let me live my last few weeks here in peace?!!!!

12 Jan, this coming Thursday there's a company year end dinner ... I have to be there even, not that I mind being there if I had enjoy the job. Thing is, I do not enjoy ... In fact, I dreaded my work daily. What kind of expression should I adopted to face them all? The thought of it makes me damn sian lor ...

Argh!!!!

Okay, so Maybe I am getting used to working?

Right, I'm 2nd month past into my new job. The stress level is getting tone down, so perhaps I am finally adjusted to the environment here? Though, there are times whereby anxiety caught up with me but I'm no longer breaking down. Which is good, I supposed?

Criticism and lectures comes every now and then, and I just nodded and commented that I shall take note of that in future. Still, there are little things that I forget every now and then, wondering I should write it down and post in front of the notice board that I will see each time I look up. A bit lame, but its' just the little things that I forgot most of the times ...

I welcome the year 2012 which is coming in another week time, but am a little reluctant to leave behind the year 2011. Reason is stupid, cause it meant lesser holidays that falls on Sunday ... Silly right? Still, yeah looking at the calender for 2012 I get a little gloomy ... Except for the Month January which have loads of holidays (New Year & CNY) From February to March ... There's totally no holidays at all!!!

A bit dreadful if you ask me ... *Sigh* Some more, Feb 2012 is a 29 days month ... An extra day for me to go through ...

Previously, I don't know whether its' to avoid problems or what sort ever, I had been contemplating of going back to school for full-time studies. I even went to the extent of wondering if I should apply for Poly courses. Lucky, a chat with Mother dearest had me halted on the idea. For a while, I was thinking maybe I can go back into the ITE and switch to something else?

After a while, I thought ... Nah, no point for me to hold 2 different ITE cert. So out of curiosity, I surf the net for a while longer and realized that ITE nows supplied Diploma courses - though only 3 courses but still, a better chance for ITE grads to pursue Diploma course rather than fighting with the rest of the O levels students out there for Poly chances - isn't it? Too bad, the only Diploma course for Business students was Technical Diploma in Culinary Skills. And its' only open to the four courses graduates - Nitec is Baking & Pastry, Nitec in Culinary Skills (Western), Higher Nitec in Hospitality Operations, and the other one I believe was a Higher Nitec course in F&B Operations or something similar.

So sad, why this kind of things only happened after my batch of students graduate? So bad ... Nonetheless, I was thinking maybe I should indeed go pursue a Diploma since its' always better looking than a ITE cert. So I started looking for private schools offering Part-time studies. With my financial status and do not wish to borrow money from parents, and additionally am too lazy to travel far - I can only look at BMC Academy.

This time I aim for Business course, and not accounting course - am sick of Financial Modules already. Since I did not persevere to complete the Diploma in Mgmt Accting & Finance at PSB. Moreover, BMC offered Monthly installments schemes which suit me ...

Currently, I am thinking to enrol in the March intake of Cambridge International Diploma in Business at Advance Level. Total course fees is about 2000++, but I can pay it in installments of 250++ per month. So I'm debating, I have until End of Jan to decide whether I am going for it. So I'm currently planning my budget for the course.

If I don't update soon, I'll go nutters!

This blog is half-dead I know, but I am too lazy to blog at home. I don't think its' safe to blog at work. Nonetheless, I can't stand it any longer ... its' not wise to use facebook as a blog so here I am.

Sometimes I can't understand myself -In fact, till now I don't know myself I would say. I wonder if there's anyone around who could really know who I am ... I felt like I'm in a mist of fog; not knowing how or why I'm here. I have no objectives in life, no goals and no aims. I felt simply empty and goes about the daily life simply.

Yes, I fret and experience normal feelings that human beings does but still I don't know why I'm feeling all those feelings, its' like there's no reason behind it. I get the urge to cry at times, but I can't seemed to see a logic reason behind my urge to suddenly cry. Sometimes I worry, but don;t know I'm worrying about what ...

During schooling days, Its' just a routine for me. I never make much an effort to study cause I have no aims or purpose in life to work towards to. When young, the school teachers will ask what we want to be when we grow up. My answer differs each time with different reasons; (Lawyer/Doctor/Actress/Singer/Career Women/etc.) I can't remember exactly what I want to be now ... Because the choices are too wide and too much from all different sectors, I fail to make up my bloody mind about it. So I let nature run its' course and not putting in too much effort in either prospect of the subjects.

When comes to teenage days, the school I pick before PSLE was not well-planned as well. I was thinking, okay so I went into HKSS. Starting out from Express Stream, the subjects suddenly becomes too much for me to handle. Geography seems foreign to me, and my first impression is I don't like this! Physical Fitness has never been my favourite, Mathematics suddenly becomes too complex for my liking and for English I;m always on borderline cases.

No friends in my class, makes me a loner. Not having common topic among classmates makes me different from the rest of the girls, and the boys only enjoy bullying antics. My temper becomes apparent, and the rest of my secondary school days are basically hell. With socializing area a mess, I've got nothing to look forward to during schooling days. My interest in studies went pummeling down the slope.

I drown myself in the world of animes and mangas, trapping myself in the fantasy world to get away from reality. A rift between a friend of mine back then caused me to sink into 'depression' when it comes down to the idea of 'friendship'. I settled for acquaintance instead.

When O level came out unsatisfactory, I was thinking so what - Go ITE lor ... So its' time to pick course again, seeing as I only wanted to pick Higher Nitec Courses my choices are limited. In the end, I pick Business Admin. Here in ITE, I make my closest and longest lasting group of friends - the 2 years in ITE are my happiest I would say, apart from my primary school days. Still, the course itself I had no preferences about it.

Upon graduation, its' time to start work - but am still in a young and playful mode and does not want to be committed fully to a job just yet. Thus I pick a job in the environment that I love, and had past experience in - a comics rental store. Here I met new friends, colleagues and good superiors. Now though, I'm no longer with them but working a 9to5 job which I pick only because the location is near my home, and Eve used to work in such an environment and its' a new thing so I want to try it out. Now as I look back and I realized I've been living a life blindly. 1 month into new job, I had broke down once and near breakdown twice ... What a mess I am!

Just an entry to remind myself on certain things...

Right, long time no update ... Well actually not very long lah, only about 2 months not updating this blog. Initially I thought of updating last night but I'm lazy so drag until now while waiting for Taiwan supplier mail to come in.

Okay, I should be in Bedok but somehow I'm not ... the boss changes his mind, and only Friday needs to be at Bedok . Paperwork done in Tanjong Pagar ...stupid right? Issue aside, just something new ... I'm changing my jobs soon.

In fact, I had already tendered in my resignation letter with 1 month notice - my last day with this company is until 19 October 2011. This time around, the job search went nicely as compared to the last time around.

Mainly because this time I don't apply to jobs randomly, I look through the job scope throughly and spend good old time considering about the duties as well as location before making up my mind to send out the applications. 4 applications and 2 job interviews later, I got myself a new job.

The 4 applications are as follows:
1. Books Kinokuniya - Cashier (No hope lah ... see from their impression during interview know liao )

2. Admin Assistant for Treede Concepts Group - no response, so I think either my notice period too long or they want someone with experience in that industry.

3. Admin Assistant for Gplan Design Pte Ltd - went for interview and viola! I got the job (details later)

4. Admin Assistant for Bukit Batok company (thru agent - he called and ask if I mind kranji instead ... but till now no response, so I heck care. If he does calls back, then I will just say I got job already)

Yes, I got the job of admin assistant for Gplan Design - am working at IMM but their head office at Maxwell went for the interview last Friday at Maxwell near to my current work place, so I went before I come in to work.

Right, the interview went smoothly with the person interviewing me briefing me on the duties and work to do there. Until we came to the topic of date of availability, cause my notice period is 1 month at first she says dunno the boss can wait for that long or not ... so she say she will give me a call if I am selected for the position.

She offered me a salary way higher than what I expected, cause this is the first time I went for a interview which the person in charge offers me what I actually wanted for the position. Then further on, while talking about the annual leave issue - she's willing to give me 10 days instead of the 7 days which is supposed to be. For that I am even more grateful - but what makes me real grateful is that - when I received her message on Tuesday morning and ask for me to call her.

When I call her up she's busy so she called me back slightly later on in the afternoon, and we discussed about my date of availability. Initially she wanted me to join the company next week, but I told her I don't wish to make things difficult for my current company. So she said, she would have to discuss with the boss then. I did inform her that if she does have a better candidate on hand she can give them the position I'm alright with the decision.

She said she does not want to randomly choose some candidates knowing that they won't be able to stay for long. Cause quite a no. of candidates she have on hand tends to job-hop a lot. In comparison to the rest, I seemed to be much a better choice for her. So she told me she would inform me after her discussion with her boss, if her boss really decided not to wait then she would let me know and I can forget about this job offer and concentrate on finding another job.

Later on in the evening, I message her and was thinking - she better let me know soon, so I would know if the other company called me in for an interview should I accept or not. Then hurriedly in less than 5 minutes, she called me back and said she had spoken to both the boss and the current admin girl that she had - and both the boss and the admin girl agreed to wait. In fact, the admin girl was kind enough to say that she will stay until the end of October and so I am accepted by their company.

She told me to contact her again once I can go over to join them, I'm so glad and grateful for the efforts that they made on their part and therefore I make up my mind that I would do my best when I went over to join them officially. I should express my gratitude to the girl once I went over, cause I sort of delayed her timing in leaving her position. This being said, since they made such a big effort in accommodating to my situation, I should put in my utmost effort in working for their company and at the very least stayed with them for a year or longer - since I heard the economy is going into recession soon.

The position is a 5.5 work week job, with hours from 9.30am to 6.30pm on weekdays and 9.30am to 1.30pm on Saturday. I am warned that the volume of work would be lot, but I am certain that I should be able to cope. The work load is a lot does not matters, what matters most is that what I done should be relevant to the position and that the people working with me are considerate and patient. Let's keep my fingers crossed and look forward to working for the company - hopefully, I'll get good colleagues that I can work with in peace.

not dead but wish to be dead

Okay, so I'm apparently not dead yet ... though I very much wished that I'm dead. Apparently, sometime during next month I'll be transferring to the Bedok Branch ... on long term basis. Ordering of course would be shifted to Bedok side as well ... Lucky not every day on night shift ... I'll be on mid-shift, usually 10-7pm (on thurs/Fri) and then 11-8pm on Mon to Wed. Off day most likely would be on Sunday.

Sian lor, travel so long ... 1.5 hour there and 1.5 hr back ...T.T

Company only going to subsidy 50% of the transportation fee ... and no more up to date TVB shows, must wait for Angie to go back Tg Pg once in a while then can lend home to watch the new shows... Starting tomorrow must bring back lots of shows to store liao D:

Haiz, never mind ... shall start packing up the stuff to be bring over on Friday. Tomorrow is going off early to have dinner with XH and gang to celebrate Evelyn's birthday. I finally went and shop for Eve's present last weekend, together with XH and her family members. And This Sat, Biyu is dropping by Tg Pg to take books and return books :P

haha

... I know I have not been updating for ages ... but well, 1st I'm lazy and 2nd dunno what to update about.

最近我再度地迷恋上了清穿文 。。。 原因则是因为看了2011年度由湖南卫视所开拍的清穿剧《宫锁心玉》的缘故。 因为看了这出剧，35集用了我3天时间 - 我再次迷上了清穿文。 无论是四爷党或者是八爷党都好。 我记得当初刚开始看的时候，是从晋江网上的那三大山看起的 。。。

先是13党的《梦回大清》，紧接着是《步步惊心》，最后才是《瑶华》。 看过了这些之后，我从最开始迷上的13爷文看起 。。。 不过因为当时很多都还没有完结，所以看到一半就没有往下看了。 紧接着我就迷上了八爷党， 看过很多。。。不过最终给我留下深刻印象的要算是《三生石上旧精魂》 - 这个我看到哭了。 很感人，但结局也很悲。 不过这是理所当然的，因为八爷党的没有一个在历史上是有好下场的。 紧接着，看腻了八爷我就把目光转向了九爷。

要说99的文内， 给我留下深刻印象的估计就是《清秋一梦》了。 这个文我一共看了2次，真的很好看。 是我会推荐的！ 再说草包十， 这要算起来他的文还真的实在是少 - 不过看起来比较没有那么心累。 因为老十是个大大咧咧的人，并没有老八的那番心思也没有老九的那般复杂。 看得顺眼多了 - 在他的文当中印象最为深刻的估计就是《十里琴歌》了。

在那之后我也看了十四爷的， 不过他的文就看得我很闹心。 最后索性不看了， 转而跑去看四四的文了。 在里头也有不少好文， 不过最喜欢的估计就是最近刚买回家了的《书虫在清朝的米虫生活》了吧。 故事轻松幽默， 百看不厌否则我也不可能花钱买回家收藏。

恩`。。。撇开清朝这个话题不提， 最近我也忙着看韩剧。 我终于把《原来是美男》看掉了， 也看了《为你摘星星》。 最近刚把《灰姑娘的姐姐》跟《贤内助女王》带回家看， 不过还没有怎么动到。 因为我被清穿文给拖住了。 为了看这些文跟韩剧，我已经有一段时间没有碰过其他小说了。 汗 。。。 看来我买回家的小说还有一段时间才会有心思去碰了。

Sick during CNY

sway right?! Lucky I am not the only one sick during CNY, Biyu is too ... And My aunt and cousin as well XDDD While I'm glad I'm not the only 'dao mei' one who is sick during this period of time, I am still rather sian that I can see all the CNY goodies and can't even eat them T.T

My Bah Kwa !!!! I haven't had a slice of it then I'm sick liao T.T Now I'm having a sore throat, so jia lat ... T.T lucky still can talk lah ... spend the whole of today reading novels XDDD Am going to continue later :P